Having had some time on my own these past days I have thought a bit about what it will be like when my body goes back to “normal”. As much as I have complained about being big and feeling a bit useless in these last weeks, I have loved being pregnant, specially as it seems to have kept the MS “away”. Now I wonder what it will be like say in a months time. Ok my MS hasn’t disappeared I still have my cognition and fatigue problems, but most of the sensory problems I have felt nothing from since maybe June last year. Last relapse was in November 2007, with the neuro saying that I have been so well I don’t even qualify for drugs anymore should make me really happy. I mean imagine if it would be something like benign MS. But I feel it will be dangerous to think like this. And if I should be 100% honest the last week or so my lack of sleep has brought on some tingling (just ever so slightly) in both my right leg and arm. I don’t want to paint the devil on the wall (as we say in Sweden) but on the other hand I don’t want to be navive and dumb either. But in the same way as I am refraining from planning my birth too much, I am intending on waiting and see what will happen to determin what i will do with regards to drugs and c-sections and what have you. I can’t see how the MS will make it’s way back to me (not that it ever left me for real). What I can plan for is some ideas about getting back into shape once the baby is born to battle all my symptoms as much as I can. I know I will be tired, but I really really REALLY need to get exercising again, as that for me has helped me the most to stay healthy. So as far as a plan for my birth and the weeks after..1, have baby 2, breastfeed 3 put baby in pram and start walking 4 rest when I can, naps are your best friends 5, enjoy life. More than that I haven’t thought of.
And on that note I shall go out in the blerghy rain and make my way down to the post office!
xoxo
Hellie
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